Basically raised in it. First stepped into a KH when I was 5 years old because my mother had started studying and was attending meetings. Lived the terror of trying to meet up to others expectations. Reason for baptism was to "Get the 'mark' so that you can have the prospect of everlasting life." Now 30 years have passed and I just can't live a lie anymore!
My life as a JW was in a constant morbid fear of God. Each day I was a paranoid soul. Now my quest in life is to learn how to "Love" God [Mark 12:30] entirely. (But without the WT Society dictating to me how.)
Alligator Wisdom (aka Brother "NOT Exerting Vigorously")